When My Fear Takes on His Courage
Focus Scripture:"The eternal God is your refuge and dwelling place, and underneath are the everlasting arms." ~ Deuteronomy 33:27, AMP
I lay curled into a ball, my eyes closed against a difficult world. I struggled to harness my thoughts and bring them captive to the Lord for I knew that there, and there alone, is where the wild imaginings belonged. Under my direction, my thoughts only stirred fears and doubts, anxieties and disappointments.
But the Lord tells us repeatedly, "Do not be afraid, for I am with you. Trust Me."
Under the Lord's guard, the debilitating thoughts are brought subject to His perfect peace. Fear and doubt have to flee. Feelings of rejection and lack of self-worth are made null and void. Anxiety loses its power and things of disappointment are seen from God's perspective.
I knew these things—even lying there in my fetal position … I knew these things.
But I remained curled in a ball. Numb. Wishing it all away, but doing nothing to resist.
Out of the blurry fog of my mind came the word, remain.
Like a lightning bolt from a darkened sky, this simple word forged a path out of my whirlwind of disillusionment.
My thoughts shifted. I realized I wasn't being steadfast in my trust of the Lord, but yet … HE remained faithful.
When I succumb to the enemy's taunts and find myself curled into a ball of depression … He remains.
When I don't know how I'm going to pay my bills or what my future holds … He remains.
Yes, our God remains, and my weakness becomes His strength. My lack becomes His provision. My fear takes on His courage and lifts high the shield of faith.
Our God remains steadfast in His love for us. His mercy is from everlasting to everlasting. He is the Alpha and Omega—the beginning and the end. He is our constant in an ever-changing world.
Our God is eternal. He remains.
And when the forces of darkness curl you into a ball and your eyes fight hard to shut out a difficult world, remember the faithfulness of our God. His love never fails.
Father, Your love amazes me. You are faithful and true, merciful and kind. You are the Great I AM—meeting whatever my need may be. Thank You Lord. I trust You to be who You say You are because I have lived it. I have lived in those dark, broken places where Your love remains and Your goodness sustains me. I pray for those who may find themselves in that same dark and broken place where fear abounds and failures taunt. I ask that You give them the wings of eagles to rise above the fray and soar on the heights of heaven right before Your throne of grace. We choose courage Lord, because we choose to trust in You and Your mighty Word. Thank You for Your abiding Presence that takes away all fear. In Jesus' Name I pray, amen.
About the Author:
Nan Jones is an author/speaker who uses the words of her heart to assist fellow Christians in discovering the Presence of God in their darkest hour. Her book, The Perils of a Pastor's Wife was a 2016 Selah finalist and her blog, Beyond the Veil, won first place in the Foundation Awards at the 2017 Blue Ridge Mountains Christian Writers Conference. Nan is also a monthly contributor to Inspire a Fire, a far-reaching inspirational blog. When Nan isn't writing, she enjoys leading prayer retreats, teaching bible studies or sharing God’s faithfulness as keynote speaker for special events. You may visit Nan at her website: www.NanJones.com or her Facebook ministry page, Seeing Beyond The Veil. For personal communication you may email Nan at firstname.lastname@example.org
The Perils of a Pastor's Wife by Nan Jones
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